if

at a certain moment in my life, a doctor will determine that my brain has ceased to function and that, for all intents and purposes, my life has stopped.

when that happens, do not attempt to install artificial life into my body by use of a machine. and don't call this my deathbed, call it my bed of life. and let my body be taken from it to help others lead fuller lives. give my sight to a man who has never seen a sunrise, a baby's face, or love in the eyes of a woman. give my heart to a person whose own heart has caused nothing but endless days of pain. give my blood to the teenager who has been pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he might live to see his grandchildren play. give my kidneys to one who depends on a machine to exist from week to week. take my bones, every muscle, every fiber and nerve in my body and find a way to help a crippled child walk. explore every corner of my brain. take my cells, if necessary, and let them grow so that someday a speechless boy will shout at the crack of a bat and a deaf girl will hear the sound of rain against her windows. know that i loved you, even unto death. burn what is left of me and scatter the ashes to the winds to help the flowers grow. if you must bury something, let it be my faults, my weaknesses, and all prejudice against my fellow man. give my soul to god. if by chance you wish to remember me, do it with a kind deed, a selfless apology, or a gentle word to someone who needs you. if you do all i have asked, i will live forever.

somebody

i want somebody to share
share the rest of my life
share my innermost thoughts
know my intimate details
someone who’ll stand by my side
and give me support
and in return
she’ll get my support
she will listen to me
when i want to speak
about the world we live in
and life in general
though my views may be wrong
they may even be perverted
she'll hear me out
and won’t easily be converted
to my way of thinking
in fact she’ll often disagree
but at the end of it all
she will understand me

i want somebody who cares
for me passionately
with every thought
and with every breath
someone who’ll help me see things
in a different light
all the things i detest
i will almost like
i don’t want to be tied
to anyone’s strings
i’m carefully trying to steer clear
of those things
but when i’m asleep
i want somebody
who will put their arms around me
and kiss me tenderly
though things like this make me sick
in a case like this
i’ll get away with it

why do i even bother?

i'm taking a walk.
in a fucking snowstorm.
alone.

ever wanted to be in someone's head?

or wish you could transfer what you were thinking into theirs? stood across from someone and known exactly what they should be saying?