tasty

i had so much to eat, i'm still digesting my food. yum.

on another note, i desperately need a job. living in troy is heartbreaking, really it is. i have expensive taste, i admit. however, i do have this keen (aka cheap) fashion sense. but every so often (actually, not often at all) i'd like to buy myself something kind of pricey.

i went to the mall today and wanted to shoot myself. everything costs so much money. the cheapest thing i wanted was $40. a $40 grey, zip up hoodie. i just don't understand... now, if i had a job. sure. i would be more inclined to buying it, but how is it that people can spend so much money on this stuff without feeling like they're being robbed?

now, if i were a man it wouldn't be as bad. at least when men are buying clothing, it's enough cloth to cover their essential parts. *ahem* but half the things i want to buy are no more than a piece of cloth intricately sown together... and when i say intricately, i mean randomly. honestly, the designers are getting a bit out of control. one can barely tell if what they're buying is supposed to be a skirt, a shirt, or a dress anymore... not that i'm entirely complaining...

here's the kicker: even if i was making enough money and didn't have loans to pay off, i'm not really sure i could deal with spending so much money. i absolutely HATE making my parents pay for things. they already pay for my groceries and gas. i'm all for people who have the money. please, don't worry about spending it. but honestly people, not having to worry and having to buy the world are entirely different things. call me crazy but there's something very attractive about a person who understands the value of a dollar. i'm not saying i don't appreciate spending, but those kids that drop $80 on a pretty shirt... shit. that's out of control.

oh my god. i sound like my mother.

i guess what i'm saying is yeah, i'm jealous. i will get a job. i'm excited to be rich later on in my life. but i will not give my children the opportunity to spend money like so many troy kids. and i will go eat a lot of ice cream. right now.