back to life. back to reality.

you all know that the last two weeks of my life have sucked harder than a tootsie roll pop... worst shit ever. and, as a result, i'm so behind in school i should drop out. you all know this - no need to hash it out. "blah blah... life sucks... school is hard..."

last saturday though, i went out of town to a diwali party at my roommate's house. my roommate, some friends of ours, and myself all drove to her family's house, got all dressed up, and celebrated the indian new year at the local country club. though i had a great time, i must admit that i thought about how far behind i was in school and how crazy my life has been the last few weeks a couple of times that night. i remember thinking to myself, "monday is going to be awful."

the thing is, around 11:45pm that night, while dancing with my friends on the dance floor, a man at the party collapsed and suffered a massive heart attack. the music stopped and the doctors at the scene started cpr while the rest of us watched quietly, waiting for the ambulance. by the time the ems came, the man had been aspirated for at least 5 minutes from the vomit that had blocked his lungs, and when they took him away in the ambulance, the whole room seemed to be in collective prayer.

when i think about everything going on in my life right now, i can't help but feel a little foolish. school and relationships, jobs and friends - all the drama we have in our lives seems insignificant in the scope of it all. i guess what i'm saying is that life is precious. pay attention to the little things. be caring. call your family. listen to your friends. recognize the people that love you and let nothing else matter but loving them back. because when it's all said and done, those are the only things that you'll be thinking about and that is what makes life a success.