June 15, 2006

shit

right now.

at this very moment.

my life really really sucks. i don't exactly feel sorry for myself as much as i feel angry - unbelievably angry and upset and pissed off at the world and everyone in it (except for my dad).

channel my energy? i don't know how. not when you're fuming and sad and completely occupied with it. perhaps a mistake was made. i'm mostly hoping for that. please god let there have been a mistake. a simple error. a flick of a pen in the wrong direction. yes, that's it. if i believe it, it will happen. it must happen. repeat the manta, remain focused.

everyone cross your fingers... i need a bit'o'luck.

2 comments:

Jaro said...

I'm sending oodles of good mojo your way...good luck and i do hope that it's only a flick of the pen..
if you need advice/ranting space, don't fail/forget/fear to ask...

Anonymous said...

luck!